It has been a turbulent summer.
Grampa Pease passed. My aunt passed a month later.
Their passings cast a shadow on even the sunniest of summer days.
I've been emotional and weepy at times. I try to put my best face forward when I'm with the kids all day, kind of the way I used to at work. They have some idea that some "sad" things have happened this summer, but they don't know specifics. They are really good at distracting me from my negative thoughts.
One day last week was a perfect example. Rosie had put on one of her princess costumes, and as she plopped down on the rug on a patch of sunshine, the sequins on her straps lit up and cast shiny diamonds around the entire room. She noticed it herself: "Mom! Look!", as she pointed excitedly at the ceiling and walls.
What she didn't know was that her sequin straps were making the diamonds. When I told her, I delighted in watching her twist and turn to make the shapes move. She sat in absolute wonder.
I snapped a few pictures and just watched her, with the biggest smile on my face. I love watching my kids experience things like this for the first time. It reminds me that there have been many bright spots this summer, shimmering on the edge of my vision.
Now I need to make them my focus.
We all find peace at difficult time. For me, it's the dragonflies that seem to be ubiquitous when I run lately...and rainbows. Look at them as loved ones passed smiling down.
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